The Five Inch Fairway

When the pollen starts to litter a light yellow coat across everything you own, when your local grocer starts moving the Cadbury eggs to the front of the store, and when white pants are no longer a fashion faux pas - it can only mean one thing. It's Masters season. The general public calls this …


Crying Over Spilled Milk

I haven't had chocolate in a month. I had to go to the hospital in early December for a procedure on my stomach, my dog had emergency surgery, it snowed, and then I got the flu. A lot has happened in a month but the worst of it has been the fact that I haven't had any chocolate.

Life Coach

The first time someone called me "Coach Nikki" was in the 7th grade; half of my life that's been my identity. Unfortunately, half of my life I've also been battling this disorder. And my biggest fear is that I've let it affect the girls that I've coached.

Me too.

I almost didn't write this. Because the stories I've read have been so different from mine; I didn't want anyone to think that I was trying to paint myself into a narrative where I didn't really belong. I didn't want anyone to roll their eyes and think I was trying to stay relevant or keep …

When Winning Is Losing

Do not throw up. Do not throw up. Do not throw up. I repeated this phrase over and over to myself for 45 minutes straight as I stared at myself in the mirror. This time, it wasn't because I had eaten an entire pizza and I was trying to keep myself from purging. No, this time it was because I was in the middle of the hardest workout I had ever done in my entire life. I honestly felt like I was going to barf at any minute, but I also felt alive.


After I posted my first blog, I felt on top of the world. I had so much encouragement and support flooding in – from people I didn’t even expect. I was beyond overwhelmed by the outpouring of love. I went the next week or so looking at myself in the mirror differently. I talked to my therapist with confidence. I walked with my head a little higher. I did it. I thought to myself. I’ve overcome this battle. And then…